Friday, September 30, 2011

The Guy with a White Cap On

This is the story of how we met.

It happened on this day a year ago (If I remember correctly, it was around 2:00am). I was in O-Bar (Ortigas) with two good friends dancing my heart out. It was a dance borne out of frustration, frustrations I had with dating and not finding the one.

Note: Yes, I am that type of (gay) guy, who believes in the one, fairytales, happily ever afters. A classic hopeless romantic who invests emotions, who later on finds out that he invested in watered stocks (who eventually had a 500% RoI with the one I'm with :D).

I was having a good time but my frustration-hands in the air-dance was interrupted. I saw a friend who is not supposed to know about my true identity (well, not at that time). I literally panicked and asked my friend to hide me, he in turn told me he saw a former classmate. So in an attempt to conceal my presence, I went with my friend to say hi to this former classmate, Pat.

My friend introduced us to each other and I greeted him politely. I said to myself, "What's up with this guy? He's wearing a cap, in a bar. Hindi ba siya naiinitan?!" Then I danced with him for a while, it was the polite thing to do (I'm such a gentleman..haha). When I was ready to go back to my friends, I saw my friend talking to my other friend whom I was hiding from. I literally panicked and the quick fix was to stay with Pat.

Note: Before we went in the bar I told my friends I don't want to meet anyone as I was supposed to take a break from the dating scene. Once again destiny would play another joke on me. The only difference is, this time it's a good one.

As I danced with Pat, I found out that he graduated from a prestigious state university, he works as an events coordinator, he did OT that Friday night and other information you can find in a CV (HR initial interview ang atake..haha). In an attempt to ease my discomfort with seeing him dance with a cap on (ang init nga kasi), I told him "Remove your cap." It took a while before he removed it and once he did I had a sudden urge to rub his head (no pun intended.. I have a thing for kalbo men, so manly and clean looking). When he got tired from dancing, I saw it as an opportunity to further conceal my presence from the abovementioned friend. So I asked Pat if he'd like to step out for a while and we did (it was around 4:00am).

Outside we got to know each other better. We talked about our families, educational background, past relationships, I even sang to him (Mr. Brightside and Use Somebody.. I think he somehow got impressed). We talked for two whole hours.

Instant chemistry.

Who would have thought that a means of hiding can turn into something meaningful, an unexpected meeting can turn into romance, that God would answer my prayers with a guy wearing a white cap dancing in a bar (who turned out to be sweet, kind-hearted and oh so charming).

I will always find joy in reminiscing how we met, for it was...

Destiny. Serendipity. Tadhana.

by Up Dharma Down

Thursday, September 29, 2011

I'm sorry.

You're perfect. I'm damaged. I'm sorry.

Friday, September 23, 2011


To My One and Only Bebe Bane,

Today we celebrate a special day. It's my first day to go to the gym! My dreams of becoming a Bench underwear model is now finally coming true.

Joke. Hahaha.

Seriously speaking, today we celebrate ten (10) months of being together. Happy monthsary Mahal ko. We're two months away from celebrating our anniversary and three months away from seeing each other, WAAAAAAAHHH!!! I cannot wait.

Thank you for staying sweet, funny and charming even though we are miles apart and in different timezones. Thank you for understanding, especially in times I don't even understand myself. Most of all, thank you for loving me, even in times I am unloveable. I will always be grateful to God for giving me a wonderful gift, I could not ask for more.

I love you Pat, then, now, always.

Ako yung brown Bane kasi alam naman natin na mas maputi ka sa akin.. haha..
I love you.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Berso [Verse]

Hindi na ako makapaghintay,
Sa aking tabi ikaw ay humimlay.
Nais kong bigyan ka ng halik sa iyong noo,
Habang ang katawan mo ay nasa gitna ng aking mga braso.
Tunay nga ang puso ay nangungulila.
Inaasam na ikaw ay muling makasama.

Monday, September 12, 2011

Sweet nothings

I can't wait for the time
that I will start and end my day
with kissing your forehead and
saying the words "I love you"

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Sweet nothings

I found the one (you),
and I will never give up..
I know it's cheesy, but what can I do,
I'm crazily, stupidly, in love with you.

(I got inspired by the movie Crazy, Stupid, Love. Good film, poison to hopeless romantics out there :D)

Friday, August 5, 2011

The Poet in Me Died: A repost

One of the dark times of Mr. Brightside.

I wrote this poem back in 2007, right after my first boyfriend (we were together for 1 year and 4 months) told me he cheated on me and eventually broke up with me. Jerk. I've forgiven him, but still, he messed me up and picking up the pieces of my broken self was not easy (after all, it was my first heart break).

Anyway, I just want to share this poem.

The Poet in Me Died
by Mr. Brightside

Words don’t make sense anymore,
The waves depart farther from the shore.
Emotions that were once all mine,
Decided to bury itself in time.

Promises now become lies,
Forever becomes a vague picture.
Tears start flowing from my eyes,
The truth now becomes torture.

Words now cease to rhyme,
Songs start to lose its meaning.
The light you once found in me refuses to shine,
I am now void of all feelings.

The heart now numbs and becomes sober,
Denying that thoughts of you still linger.
The questions still remain unanswered,
Nothings real until you realize it’s all over.

I crash and burn
Tired to hope and yearn
The heart and mind collide
The poet in me died.