Saturday, June 26, 2010

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Isn't it sad how much effort you put into forgetting someone? Kung saan lupalop ka pumupunta, kung sino-sino tinatagpo mo, kung anu-ano ang ginagawa mo para lang maging ok ka. Nagpapakalunod ka sa trabaho, nanood ng sandamukal na dvds, buong araw naglalaro psp, lahat gagawin mo para lang maalis ang isip mo sa taong nawala sa'yo. But at the end of the day, siya pa rin.

It's been three months since he left for Singapore. Siya ang GBF (Gay Best Friend) ko... and then some... but like he always tells me "you're more than a best friend to me."... he was more than a best friend to me... Naiintindihan ko siya kung bakit kailangan niya umalis, para sa mga pangarap niya at para sa pamilya niya. Ang di ko naiintindihan ay yung paraan kung paano niya ako iniwan. It was days before he left. I really blame the tequila, but more than the tequila i blame the kiss... dahil dun lahat ng pinilit kong ibaon na emotions resurfaced.

I loved him. I love him. He loved me, but not as much. He wanted an open relationship, i wanted exclusivity. I did not choose him, I chose someone else, who eventually made me regret. It was a mistake of epic proportions. Sana kumapit pa ako a little more. Sana I gave him a reason to stay.

Ngayon, i feel stupid for feeling these things. I mean wala nang sense. Di na siya babalik. Matagal siyang di babalik. Time will soon erase what we had. Mahirap pag kalaban mo oras na. Mahirap pag gusto mo pang ipaglaban, gusto mo pang umasa pero wala ka nang magagawa. All I'm left with is unnecessary emotions and the good memories tattooed in my head (and in my heart).


"...'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even, even no...
What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces"



Mahal kita.
Ikaw pa rin.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Nga pala...

Ay! Nga pala...may blog nga pala ako...hahaha

Mukhang inaagiw na ang blog ko sa tagal kong di nagpopost ng kahit anong kuwento, video at kung anu-ano pa. Kung tatanungin niyo kung bakit, isa lang ang sagot... Trabaho, trabaho, trabaho... Pero masaya naman ako at I'm aiming for promotion this July.

Nakakapagbasa naman ako ng mga posts ng mga 'finafollow' ko.. like sina Guyrony, Mugen, Soltero, Mcvie at kung sino sino pa... At apparently, may crush na ako kay BM dahil his posts never fail to put a smile on my face ^_^... so ayun nga nakakapagbasa naman ako pero di ako nakakapagcomment dahil gumagamit lang ako ng proxy sa office at it doesn't allow me to comment.

May mga plano na akong ipost...so stay tuned ok... Au Revoir for now